past is past...now is now...

package

2011-01-06T06:33:00.000-08:00

i cant wait for my package to arrive.......its like waiting im for Christmas to start all over again! i love you mamiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii!

grades

2011-01-06T04:17:00.000-08:00

well im shocked and very happy to say that i have passed every class! booyeah!

prelim exams:

NCM 102 Mother and child: 64/100 uh..thats a pretty bad score if you look at it, its probably like a C- , but knowing i got the highest grade in class and im the only one who even got a 60+ makes me super uper duper happy! when my name got called i thought my teacher was joking! like seriously my mouth freaking dropped to the floor, well not literally but you get what i mean. i really thought i would fail because i didn't study at all! i just scanned it.......i just winged it! i know its bad but yeah haha pls dont ruin it....it is a bad score.......but.........im the highest and thats all that matters *evil laugh~~~~~~~~muwahaahaha

Sociology and Anthropology: 103/ 115 i dont know if im the highest but i know im at the top 5 or something....which is also pretty good knowing that i frantically scanned my notes 15 mins before the exam was given! booyeah for sleeping in and still getting a freaking A!!!! oh hellz yezz! now i can sleep in his class without getting threatened of getting kicked out or being chalked! oh yezz! *he kept on mentioning that he would throw chalks to whoever falls asleep in his class.....in all honesty....im the only one who does that and ive been warned......i take it lightly hahaha.......

Pharmacology: well this is one of my major subjects and because it involves math you would really expect me to fail.......i thought so too. i got a 58/100......it sucks too because i mostly gave all my time in studying for this class! this is the only class i studied on.......ugh........ill do better next time because it doesnt have any computations wahahaha.......and actually i really did well on the computations, i just didn't do it the long way like he wanted causing some point deductions!!! gah whatever.......i hate doing it the long way......also the multiples choice! i got 36/50! argh.......

Nutri:.........well this just sucked. we just watched a movie about food preparation but she never showed us our papers..........gah, i shouldve skipped......

heartbroken much........

2011-01-05T08:15:00.001-08:00

san fran

2011-01-05T04:40:00.001-08:00

gah i miss san francisco right now........

in addition, mother nature just gave me a present......

curse is here...

anniversary

2011-01-05T03:38:00.000-08:00

its my parents 15th? wedding anniversary today, actually its weird how my grandparents got married just 6 days earlier then my parents did. i hope they last as long as my grandparents too. wouldn't that be sweet?

"forget this" as quoted. ok lets.....

school starts tom.........great.......

one of the people i look up to: go to her blog, its legit!

Three pieces of advice I’m about to give other people that I would do well to remember myself:

1. You can’t be crippled by an emotion unless you’re the one doing it to yourself.

2. Just because your issues have a name it doesn’t mean you’re aware of them.

3. Assholes are gonna violate the social contract. You can come to expect it. You can even be prepared for it, but don’t ever get used to it.

exercise 3

2011-01-04T23:26:00.001-08:00

day 3:

30 min
speed 6.0
1 glass of water

i think im going to stay in that pace for awhile because whenever i go higher my chest hurts too much because i cant breath. LOL! i may have heart issues but iono i hope not. im at risk actually.......

occasion

2011-01-04T06:14:00.000-08:00

ive heard a lot of people say that you meet your first love by the age of 16. Im not quite sure about this because i met ian when i was 13 years old. the thing that gets to me is that i cant remember who i met first. was it ian or jonathan? whoever it was...i was friends with both of them at that age and i think i was too young and naive to understand anything. you may ask, where am i getting into? well today is my "monthsary" i cant really say that i dont celebrate this day but both of us greet each other every time it comes. i was just trying to remember all the times i ignored and pushed him away in the past and how things played out. i wonder if jonathan never showed up. i wonder if ian did the same. i wonder what my highschool life would be consisted off......we can never tell can we? its just me doing that "if's" and "butt's" again. all in all im still thankful.

iantots,

this new year i hope that our bond with each other will grow stronger. obstacles may come and hope's may be lost but i know well both overcome everything together. last year was a roller coaster for us and it was fun until both of us got weary but look at us now. still together. i cant remember a day that you haven't said you love me or you miss me. you always try to make me feel loved and cared for. you make me happy, more so when you tx me your cheesy lines and call me just to tell me you forgot to say i love you haha or when you tell me sweet dreams goodnight dont let the bed bugs bite whenever i go to sleep. you tell me im beautiful even when im mess. im thankful. thankful for everything. you dont even know how much i miss you. even if im pretty horrible in showing all my love for you i hope that you feel the same way too even though im not so sweet as you are. this is getting to cheesy now haha so ill leave it at that. happy monthsary and i love you

sarah.

omg, i know right?! after freaking 2 years?! dang......

exercise 2

2011-01-04T00:26:00.000-08:00

day 2:

30 min in the treadmill
speed of 6.0
1 glass of water
1 pear, 1 mango and 4 chico's

i think i cant exercise tom until friday because i have school so im going to fix a sched so i can use the
treadmill.

treatment

2011-01-03T07:24:00.000-08:00

I try to treat myself my body sometimes when i have some money. i got a haircut, facial and my braces tightened last month. Yesterday i got a pedicure and today i got a SWEDISH MASSAGE which was heavenly! its like $6!! i know right?!! omg! i loved it! i think im going to try the thai massage next! i think when my family gets here ill recommend them to that place. ill probably treat myself once a month! no. 1 reason why i love the philippines so much! ahehehe....

one note though: it was pretty awkward because we have to take everything off except for our panty which was really really weird for me and my cousin. she was on another bed right next to me. we were covered with a towel and all but its still weird.........oh i kept on giggling whenever she would massage my back and my legs. she commented on how long my arms and legs are that i can be a model which is weird knowing that im the shortest one in my family. darn. oh after the one hour massage we were given drinks which i think was pretty good! i loved it!

exercise

2011-01-02T22:25:00.000-08:00

day 1:

30 min in the treadmill
speed of 5.5
1 glass of japanese green tea 1 tsp of sugar

i got so aggravated earlier that i tried for the first time the treadmill, and yeah we do have one in the house so i think ill make it a habit. i also bought green tea.

rant

2011-01-02T20:42:00.000-08:00

it sometimes angers me that my parents dont understand how much "acne" affects a person. i was having a talk with them earlier and i recommended some products to my sister and brother for their pimples because its getting worse and my mom and dad said that they shouldnt get it because its only going to get worse and its hormonal so its just going to come back. but they dont get how preventing it from getting worse is the key to everything! this is where my parents throw me off......they dont have discipline about health. i know i maybe sounding like a hypocrite but at least ive change! they havent! they eat the same fatty foods everyday and they dont walk or exercise even a bit. ive told them a lot of times about the bad things that can harm them but no they dont listen. i should know better because i learn this stuff and ive met a lot of people who are very ill because they dont take care of themselves. it does irritate me from my freaking bone when people dont care about their health. i seriously cringe! at least make an effort you know? sigh....this is why im insecure about my face because of my parents. they say its because i dont sleep enough or i do this and that but they havent really helped me in treating it thats why it got hella bad. now they are doing the same thing to my brother and sister and im not going to let that happen. makes me also mad when they keep on talking about how acne will just go away......not really!! not until you do something about it and apparently they are not helping at all. this is why they call it scarring......

i miss...

2011-01-01T20:31:00.001-08:00

addition

2011-01-01T05:02:00.000-08:00

a new addition to my new years resolution

stop going on facebook and tumblr

help with house chores and do my own laundry

read and watch more

take more pictures

im still thinking.....

i know its impossible to know everything about the person you love but not knowing the little bits makes me wonder/doubtful.........i hate asking because i dont hesitate to ask what i like. i straight out tell you what i need. i hate doing that i should stop it!

2011

2011-01-01T01:26:00.000-08:00

Year 2011 Overview

Get ready to rock it in 2011, Scorpio! You've got so much going for you in nearly every life arena you won't know where to focus first. For starters, you'll have more work opportunities than you'll know what to do with. In fact, with so many alluring offers crossing your desk, the whole picking and choosing fiasco could easily lead to typical Scorpio overkill. Extreme by nature, the idea of having too much to handle sounds like a total joyride until the reality of having zero time for anything (like eating and sleeping) kicks into your stubborn consciousness.

You thrive under intensity, so that aspect of your ridiculously busy life won't be a problem. It's just that Saturn bearing down in your sector of sleep, dreams and retreat will feel like an ongoing thorn in your side should you neglect taking enough time out for yourself to re-balance and shut out the demands of the big bad world.

Balance is never easy for a Scorpio. You're like a moth to a flame when it comes to amping up the drama in your life. By the time your half-birthday arrives in May, you'll be under the extreme influence of six planets lining up in your work sector in the Cardinal sign of new beginnings: Aries. And yes, that could literally mean you'll be working on at least six different projects simultaneously. Just watch that your health doesn't suffer as a result. Double up on the supplements and be sure to get enough rest to see you through this exciting but demanding time.

-how true is this? but still bring it on 2011! my health will probably be a problem but knowing that ill be busy makes me love my course even more :) i dont like sitting in class and i really dont like homework. I'd rather be in the hospital getting my cases all done and doing some research and case presentations/projects. It will be a productive year i bet. how exciting! I dont easily break under pressure, I like it actually :) im just a lazy ass

swan

2011-01-01T01:06:00.000-08:00

I just finished watching black swan just earlier and no not in the theaters hehe....if you want to watch click here......its good enough quality for me. I cant really complain either because its not showing here in the Philippines. They haven't even shown TANGLED! probably on Feb. but that's hecka long! I'll wait though because I want to watch it in 3D.

well reaction: hmm...I think it speaks for itself, I mean you get the picture and it has that after effect where it leaves you breathless but not that much that your blown away. But if it did blow you away then good for you. Its pretty hard for me to explain it but i do relate. More so with the mother then the main character because I'am guilty for having the same attitude. Strict and compulsive but not at that point of obsessiveness. Instead of making them fly on their own, I'm there hindering it. Getting attached while thinking there is no strings attached. I have to stop doing that, it somewhat prevents that person and me.....myself from moving on. Haha so weird huh? something did bother me from the movie though, the way she picked on her nails and skin. gives me goosebumps, ahehe get it? lol i know im lame.

the beginning of an end

2010-12-31T07:31:00.000-08:00

As always, I'm thankful for another fruitful year and for the blessings that I have received. This 2010 was a blast but I bet 2011 will be better! I met a lot of new people and met some old friends and family which makes it bittersweet in a sense. But this year will probably be a bone breaker for me because I'll be a junior and everybody knows that its the hardest year, but that doesn't hold me back from anything. Bring it on! I'll make things work and it will work one way or another. This year really did make me stronger, from what my family went through because of my grandma...that experience really did change me in a way. Live life without regrets and just keep on going. Hello 2011 and goodbye 2010, it was nice till it lasted ^_^

disturbed

2010-12-30T23:27:00.000-08:00

you can just tell me if you didn't want to be disturbed instead of hiding yourself, plain and simple, you got your space and i got mine. you have your thing and so do i.

sigh~~~~~~ i need to enjoy new year more so im going to clean and eat as much as i can until my belly drops.

happy new year to everybody. may this year be merry.

2010-12-30T04:24:00.000-08:00

If you don’t like something, change it. If you can’t change it, change your attitude. Don’t complain.

Maya Angelou

muthafufu

2010-12-29T21:11:00.000-08:00

i lost the connection to my separate hard drive!!! gah i need to print out pictures but how? this means my room is a ruckus again....

2010

2010-12-29T19:39:00.000-08:00

2010: In the beginning
Where did you bring in the New Year? here in the philippines
Who were you with? with my aunt, uncle and cousins
Did you kiss anyone at midnight? nopes
Did you make any resolutions? yeah but i forgot most of them

2010: Your love life
Did you break up with anyone? nopes
Did you get anything for Valentine’s day? not really
Did you meet anyone special? my friend christine?
Did you fall in love? I already am

2010: Friends and enemies
Did you meet any new friends this year? heck yeah
Did any of your friendships end? i guess
Did you dislike anyone? some some but cant do anything about that can i?
Did you make any new enemies? nah, its all good
Did you resolve any fights? yeah
Who was your closest friend? christine, rose, cathy and luissa
Who did you grow apart from? friends back home
Do you have any regrets when it comes to your friendships? yeah but im not going to dwell about it

2010: Your birthday
Did you have a cake? yup :) i got 3 actually one from my friend joanna and another from my mom, oh also from dianne
What did you do for your birthday? first was at my aunts house basically played with my friends second was at my house, basically just a reunion
Did you have a party? yups
Did you get any presents? yups :) plaid shirt from joanna, headband from cess, necklace from clair, stuff toy from chris, set of earrings and a necklace from my sister and tons of money :) ian gave me roses and chocolates with stuff toys :)
If so what was the best thing you got? all of it :)

2010: All about you
Did you change at all this year? yups
Did you dye your hair? haha yeah, dark brown
Did you get your hair cut? ‘yups
Did you change your style? i always do, probably changed it 3 times this year
Did you get good grades? uh..borderline haha
Did you have a job? im not allowed
Do you drive? nope, illegally lol
Did you own a car? i guess? my moms car is actually mine
Did anyone close to you gave birth? yeah one of my aunts?
Did you move at all? not really

2010: Wrap up
Is 2010 a good year? it is, no regrets with it
Did 2010 bring any new insights? hell yeah!
Do you think 2011 will top 2010? every year tops another in my opinion :)

musubi

2010-12-29T18:48:00.000-08:00

i woke up today craving for spam musubi!!! omona! im going to make some later and i did my research just this morning about the different ways of making one wahaha! yeah all for musubi! man i forgot to go to L&L when i was in the states! damn.......i want sushi so bad.....

ten facts

2010-12-29T06:11:00.000-08:00

about my boyfriend, I know its cliche but since ian said i only know 9 im going to prove him wrong!!

1. hes very very ticklish
2. doesn't like eating vegetables except for this one vegy..i forgot the name
3. hes a human heater, he doesn't like wearing shirts and socks while sleeping
4. hes very careful about cutting his nails. it takes him hours just cutting them. im serious
5. he smells like tide detergent soap haha smells clean
6. he reads a lot of those thick fiction books and watches a lot of movies/anime, oh he likes to read those long ass mangas
7. he doesn't like watching scary movies
8. he likes being reassured time to time
9. he works hard when given the chance
10. he likes being clean and hates it when he doesn't take a shower

wahaha this is what i got

1.cute, adorable, n has a killer r___
2. DRINKS WAY TOO MUCH COFFEE!
3. enjoys watching korean drama's
4. eats endlessly
5. currently has a funny hair cut that makes her look like a kid
6. pigs out on crab even though shes allergic
7. undeniably stubborn to the core
8. gets lost faster then you can say "we're lost,"
9. cares too much about her facial appearance even though shes already so cute
10. extremely lazy to the max, yet somehow still managed to get 2 years into nursing program.

funny ian very funny! oh yeah fact 11. ian has a bigger butt then me.....im not kidding

to do list...

2010-12-29T04:14:00.000-08:00

Because I'm sick I was not allowed by the parentals to go to the province so I'm making a whole list of things that I'm going to do before I go back to school.

1. clean my room

2. go to my dermatologist for lolo's medicine

3. tell anti arlene how to apply medicine

4. buy leather flats and cap for lolo

5. buy new mattress for lolo and lola

6. develop pictures for ate bessie's gift and for the grandparents anniversary gift

7. frame the puzzle already!

8. rewrite all my notes in a new clean notebook

9. buy a new bag

10. start painting again

11. read all the book i bought...thats like 5 books? or more *if anyone doesnt know, i have a habit of buying a lot of books but i just hoarder instead of actually reading them.

12. buy hairpins! where the heck did all my hairpins go?! i probably bought like bags of it but meh....

13. talk to my parents more then the usual

14. pay more attention to my siblings

15. finish watching my korean dramas omona~~~~~

I cant think of anything else except for my pimples right now....ayooo it hurts. It's probably because I haven't been eating "healthy" foods since I got here in Baguio, when I was in Pangasinan I was basically eating fish....I miss it....

and because im a hungry little monster and im getting dizzy I'll leave now...

2010-12-29T04:01:00.000-08:00

"Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it’s like being young again. Colours seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face. In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you. You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life."
-Bob Marley

True Love is Unconditional

Unconditional love is truly free of any expectations, limitations or definitions.This is a love that holds your loved ones best interests and happiness above all other things including your own happiness. When you offer your love unconditionally it is important to realize that you have no right to expect that your feelings will be returned or that your loved one will act and speak according to guidelines you set forth. Let things be as they are, don’t force true love, it’ll all fall into place on its own.

-abbey magpoc

sick

2010-12-28T17:46:00.000-08:00

unfortunately im sick and it really sucks because i cant go home and celebrate new year with my lolo and lola. im very emotional when i get sick and that usually means being whiny and all of that ugly stuff so sorry ian for making you go through all that ugliness hehehehe....and because i might not be able to go anywhere because im sick im bound to stay here at home....which sucks more......but at least my temperature went down from 37.6 to 36.1........i feel better......

well hi to anyone who is reading this, be well and dont get sick!

improvements

2010-12-27T08:52:00.000-08:00

because insomnia is kicking i have been watching tons of youtube vids and reading a lot of blogs from random people that i find interesting....i mostly do this to pass the time....i like reading blogs more then books because the content is always updated, rather then having it finished in one sitting. so because i read a lot of random things, ive been watching/reading reviews and information about how to take care of skin......i guess i shouldve watched earlier because ive messed up on a lot of things.....like:

1. im not gentle with my face. i have different kinds of face scrubs and i get my facials every month which is pretty costly. my face is very very sensitive and because i have ocd about cleanliness i scrub my face thinking that all the germs will go away. but in fact its the opposite, i bet i scrubbed all those good natural fighting bacteria in my face which lead to my pimples. i think when i was little i was even crazy enough to clean my face with sanitizing alcohol and i always cover my pillow with a brand new white shirt everyday...i still do actually....all those stuff i used to clean my face when i was little gave way for pimples to live in my face during my high school years.......which was pretty bad. thats why i just use the cetaphil face cleanser for oily skin, its actually working on keeping my pimples go away. it has that clean smell and it doesnt lather up like normal cleansers do so people who is new to this should get used to that.

2. not putting moisturizer. i always thought that my face was hydrated enough since its always oily but wrong again, the less moisture it has the more its going to be oily. so now i try to moisturize but then it gave me another problem...over moisturizing lead to allergies! that freaked me out more thats why i have an un-even skin tone and people think i have eczema but i seriously dont. so i have another medicine to take in..boohoo for me...its clearing up now though and that makes me happy

3. not having a day to day routine. as a lot of people know im lazy and forgetful. so cleaning my face every night and morning is not in my schedule specially if im very tired. but now that im more concerned with my face i do wash it 2 times a day and try my best to not touch it.

4. lack of sleep was everything. people keep saying that because i barely sleep before made my pimples pop out like crazy but its not, its because of my genes and my diet. my parents both had pimples when they were young. my dad has sensitive skin while my mom has oily skin and combine those two together and bam! pimples! even my brother and sister are having problems now because of hormonal imbalance. also ive noticed that while i was in the states i had a lot because of the way i was eating. when i gained 15lbs i got sick a lot and all that fat made my body release more oil. when i went back here in the philippines and i got thinner because i exercised and ate more healthy food all my pimples started to go away.

5. not drinking water. i thought drinking milk was enough but i guess not. i read something before that lactose is one of the factors why people get pimples...well if you drink too much of it which in my case!! i do! so i need to drink water more and less on milk and sodas....how sad. did i mention i hate drinking water?

6. last but not the least STRESS. when i was in highschool, i think i was pretty stressed because of all the things that i was going through. all those boy and family problems that i barely talked about to anyone even my close friends made it harder for me to release all those frustrations i was keeping in. i think thats why i blogged a lot because its my way of release. i think im more loose now that im here in the phil. because im more concerned about myself rather then thinking about other peoples problems. ive become less nosy too which is good.

so that is all..well not really i have more but im sleepy now and i have to go somewhere tom. so toodles...i hope you guys learned something from my experience.

ending

2010-12-27T05:47:00.000-08:00

ive been lacking a lot this year but i guess ive improved quite a bit then before..

and because i like changing things a bit im going to make another blog when new year hits, or maybe after since im going to be spending my new year with my lola and lolo again because its their 55th? wedding anniversary, isnt that great? there is no signal there whatsoever...anyways, i should make a list of the things that i need to buy or something but first things first, i want to say something...

this year has been really fulfilling, not really sure if thats the word but its close to that feeling... i learned a lot of things just by staying in school and going in and out of the hospital. meeting new people is a usual for me now not like before where i was really shy and not so out going ahehehe......i learned to be more patient and sensitive even though it usually doesnt show. im still on that on going process of improving oneself...i learned it the hard way...

i left home by the age of 17 to go to school in another country because of the benefits that it will give me and my family. now that im 19 im halfway of finishing and i do feel proud of myself because i think i made the right decision. By the age of 21 ill be a registered nurse, that pretty much sounds like a good deal right? i dont regret leaving because it gave me the chance to prove a lot of things. It made me a stronger person. i dont want to sound dramatic or anything but im really happy about my decisions. and im also happy that i have someone special that was always there by my side even if were miles apart.

i wanted to say a lot more but i dont want to drag things out like i always do so im just going to leave it like this..^________^ i hope you all are having a great time and Happy New Year!

resolution

2010-12-27T00:44:00.000-08:00

new years resolution.....not really much more like goals?

not cut my hair until it reaches my last rib! and maintain full bangs or side bangs

drink more water.......this is always in my list for some reason

sleep earlier....well except if i have 3-11 duty, that would suck

only go to my dermatologist if im breaking out like crazy. stop getting facials!

study more?

uh.......what else.......

i do call my family more now.....i guess my friends

be more involved in school

text people more and pick up calls.....uh......thats going to be hard

clean my room more

take more pictures...and speaking of pictures.....here are the rest

click the pic to make it bigger

hug

2010-12-26T11:13:00.000-08:00

all i wanted was a hug for christmas.....i miss it when someone hugs me from the back.....i dont need material things...i didnt even ask for anything.....

just a hug will do...

plans

2010-12-26T09:35:00.000-08:00

change of plans....if i cant live in europe i will settle for singapore...it just popped in my head while i was on the van earlier......

nice and clean environment and good tropical weather...^__^ i can also wear whatever i want without people hassling me......

i want to go to the maldives......i dont want hawaii anymore....

sad

2010-12-26T09:11:00.000-08:00

whenever i get sad and lonely i try to think about how lucky i am. like right now. i may be alone but at least i know my somebody misses me out there somewhere. im going to eat something....maybe im just hungry or i just need a food distraction........sigh~~~~~~~~

christmas

2010-12-26T09:03:00.000-08:00

to be continued......

mornings

2010-12-22T19:08:00.000-08:00

i always hated mornings...i ended up crying this morning just because of that thought...then i cried again because of christmas.....how sad.....

anyways lets leave/forget that......

happy birthday benny, i hope your having fun in sf rather then staying at home and playing video games the whole day. be thankful and blessed that you lived another year of your life and your not ill/sick. be well and be happy. so happy birthday again! also tell your mom i said hi :)

give

2010-12-22T01:20:00.000-08:00

make the best of what your given.......appreciate and be thankful for you are blessed.....

xcitement

2010-12-21T05:01:00.000-08:00

read this....

i was first told about this by one of my group mates on monday and i just watched what happened on the news earlier.....its a tragic event and i somewhat can relate because first they are nursing students and i can just imagine all the hard work they put in to graduate. i cant even imagine how hurt their families are.......

im not excited for christmas at all......i dont know why but maybe because im not with my family....i always anticipated getting presents...but im not getting anything this year, even the last....but its not even all about the gifts...its just going to church and eating all together. i miss that. at least i get to spend it with my grandparents this year :) i bet it will be fun eating and celebrating with them even if they go to sleep early hehehe.....and having duty makes it really hard to be excited for anything. im tired and all worn out. probably this is how my parents feel whenever they work and its the holidays.....it always made me sad when they do that but i cant really do much since its their job. i bet id be doing the same thing since i know im such a workaholic. it really doesnt show much but i do work hard when given the chance. i dont like sloppy work......sigh.......

man! last day of duty tom and im freaking excited! gah, at least i can take a breather for a while before i get all toxic again......oh its pretty funny how all my instructors think i was born in the US because of my english accent....why is it funny? well to me it is because my english sucks! if it was compared to someone whose really been born and raised there. my grammar sucks too....oh the agony. it can be better...if i was trained more.......i just dont have the time to write essays/stories.....wait a min....i dont! wahaha! nursing students dont have the time to write essays for lit books or whatsoever like other students do which im thankful for :) it makes my life so much easier....but we have to do NCP's *nursing care plans......which........takes..........forever........id rather write an essay actually.......its a pain in the butt, and i have to make one now for my patient so toodles...

iantots i miss you im sorry for not being able to talk to you much for the past couple of days........its been a haggard week for me......sorry muah....ill make up for it...ill try...

smell

2010-12-21T01:00:00.000-08:00

my teachers always talked about the "new aromas" that we will be encountering while on duty either in the hospital or community. i can tolerate some smells......but yesterday and today.....uh, lets just say that my nose wanted to come off and just run away....i didnt know that the medical ward would smell worse then the OB ward....omogah......i even had a mask on and the smell still lingers.....sacrifice sarah......you should get used to this now! your a nurse!!

lonely

2010-12-19T07:10:00.000-08:00

whenever i get lonely i changed something. goodnight world i have duty tom in medical ward. 7 to 3. just great.

hair

2010-12-19T06:14:00.000-08:00

i look like a different person when i have make up on and when i smile T_T

no make up but with longer hair and no bangs.

so whats up? hm. i went clubbing last night with my friend. this morning i went out with my cousin for breakfast and bought christmas presents because were having secret santa here :) we also watched tron after and i randomly wanted a haircut. i really dont like my forehead and ive been wanting china doll bangs for a long time now.....i dont know if it fits me but atleast it covers my shiny forehead hahaha! so what do you think?

wrong

2010-12-18T03:51:00.000-08:00

in every relationship either it may be perceived to be perfect has its flaws.......

in my relationship....it is called the "guilt trip"......im not sure why it always comes up, maybe because of the distance......either one who goes out with friends or someone else the other party would either have unpleasant feelings about it.....so either one wouldnt have the fun that they would like because the other is upset or whatsoever.......

gah......im sorry ian, the both of us shouldnt be doing this and i mostly do it so im sorry and i hope that youll be able to go out and have more fun even if you dont have my permission. i guess were still not used to this......i wasnt like this before but i guess the part of not knowing really bothers me.....i dont know why so dont ask.......the unknown bothers me.......it looks like i dont care but usually i do and ill eventually find out sooner or later....blah. my head is kinda messed up right now, i hope your sleeping well muah! if you ever read this in the morning, ill call you k? muah love you.

style

2010-12-17T19:43:00.000-08:00

you know how people have different styles...mines the "HAGGARD" look....

the positives:

being comfortable with the clothes you wear

suits the weather most of the time

people basically dont expect much out of your clothing

messy look means messy hair as well

the negatives:

people always think your lazy, which i say thank you very much : P

it doesnt come off as stylish at all

people expect you to dress more accordingly to whatever...

hmm.......school plus uniform equals haggard look to me......sigh.....i wish we never have uniforms......

convos

2010-12-16T06:12:00.000-08:00

i like butting into convos in the internet where i really learn a lot of things....this is how i study, i ask questions in the internet where nurses study for their exams and i just sit there and copy the answers booyeah!

serious

2010-12-16T04:16:00.000-08:00

im a demanding person, i bet my family and close friends already know that. i just dont know how they can tolerate it because if i have another me i bet id be yelling at myself.....weird.......gotta go study now.....

mode

2010-12-15T06:43:00.000-08:00

study mode....hmm...im hungry.....you know that feeling of having so much potential that you think you can do everything or you feel like your at the top of the world but you just stand there so you feel lost and wasted...omgahhh i hate that feeling. seriously i can ace this exam but i barely study. what the heck sarah, why you so lazy! gah i hate you right now...you better study or your not going to get your package! you cant open it until you pass this exam sarah! you better not!!!!!

~thats me threating myself......i know im weird......i rarely listen to other peoples threats so i black mail myself instead.......it works.....

oh whenever i get reminded of the people that i "dislike" i cringe...why oh why...i hate it when i do that...maybe its because i have to deal with them with this face ^___^ when on the inside im like -__-
im so tired of doing that, i wish i can just lash out my inner b*tchyness and do whatever the f*ck i want...but no...im better then that....sigh~~~whenever i get angry my jaw hurts...i just found out that whenever im stressed, i grind my teeth at night and i wake up with a puffy face. great. just great. im so mad at someone right now that when push comes to shove ill curse them out like crazy they would think im possessed by some evil demon...well thats going to far now aint it?

Janet Jackson - "Let's Wait A While" (Stacy & Robbie)

2010-12-14T20:40:00.000-08:00

break

2010-12-14T09:38:00.000-08:00

so jealous of people who got their break early....mine starts on the 23...2 days away from christmas....sigh....
and now i have trouble sleeping....just finished episode 9 of secret garden and i cant freaking wait for the next one! i wonder if princess is reading this..hmm...if you are then my favorite part was when they hella switched back! omo omo omona! cant wait heheehe......i sound like those idol fans....ahihihi......

hmm......im sad at the moment....but i guess it will eventually pass.....sigh~~~ aigooo......

poop

2010-12-14T05:34:00.001-08:00

its been a week now that ive been having stomach problems and diarrhea.........ugh..........i even woke up at 3 in the morning to take a dump! that never ever happens before! i didnt even poop yesterday and now im pooping like crazy........eh...........sorry too much info, but i just need to keep this on track because i dont know if its because ive been eating a lot of vegetables and fish....hmm not sure.....

stars

2010-12-14T01:56:00.000-08:00

SCORPIO - The Addict
EXTREMELY adorable. Loves to joke. Very Good sense of humor. Will try almost anything once. Loves to be pampered. Energetic. Predictable. GREAT kisser. Always get what they want.. Attractive. Loves being in long relationships. Talkative. Loves to party but at times to the extreme. Loves the smell and feel of money and is good at making it but just as good at spending it! Very protective over loved ones. HARD workers. Can be a good friend but if is disrespected by a friend, the friendship will end. Romantic. Caring..

i bolded the ones that i know are so true about myself....and being lazy should be one of them. im trying to rewrite all my notes, its a way of making all the words stick to my head and all my notes will be clean and spiffyyyy.....hehehe....oh i went to get my braces done today, its color gray :) also got a facial since i havent gotten one for a long time now.....

well i gotta go and study for prelims...this is the first time im studying for prelims......or any exam....weird....i just always run through my notes everytime i have exams, but now im really going to try :) i dont want to disappoint my parents. man freaking two more years and ill be done!!! booyeah! lets go sarah you can do this, a little more push!

list of things to do:

rewrite all notes and study for prelims
project collage for nutri/diet class
presentation for socio/anthro class
see if theres duty *cross fingers, please no :(
buy fruits for lolo
buy flowers for lola
bring camera and take pics of lolo and lola for 50+ wedding anniversary
frame puzzle piece already!
celebrate christmas with family in pangasinan
go back to baguio for new year!
school again.....do requirements
go to the dentist on the 15 for new brace wires
frame pictures and go back to pangasinan on the 16 and get my package!
and whatevs the rest...................
MAKE A NEW BLOG AND GET A NEW HAIRCUT! :)

broken

2010-12-13T17:44:00.000-08:00

gah! i think i broke my charger again.......so lets see....

im really not good with keeping my things in perfect shape, either i break or loose it or someone steals it....

my 1st computer = the battery is dead, right click button is missing, the screen is about to come off
2nd computer = killed the charger *just this morning...and probably killing the battery
2nd cellphone = got stolen
3rd cellphone = the screen broke
4th cellphone = got stolen
5th cellphone = got stolen
6th cellphone = the battery dies out hella quick
7th cellphone = killed the battery

seriously.........im not even kidding when i say im really bad with electronics.........the only thing that lasted me for years is my precious camera :) its better than those new touch screen cams, watevs : P omg four years of precious pictures :)

im excited to get my stuff from mama! she sent me another box full of goodies! and she bought me an itouch!!! woohoo! i can face time with my sister now even if im away from home!! booyeah! she also bought me new headphones, battery for my cp, memory card for my camera :) and other stuff! chocolate!! im so freaking happy! im going to study hella hard so that my mom will be proud of me :)

i want a new haircut!!!! omg, should i get one now?...hmm decisions made on impulse is so bad....im sowe ian

mixed

2010-12-13T01:08:00.000-08:00

im warm and cozy right now...even though i have the fan right infront of my face while i drink my black chai tea...

i woke up today and went to school for my ngt *nasogastric tube return demonstration, i think i messed up in one part.....it took me awhile to put the whole tube inside the nostril but its fine i passed :) i went to pay for my tuition fee after and went to the mall to change my money...im not sure if i should pay all of my tuition fee now...i should ask mama....went to chowking and saw some friends and got my tea from starbucks then took a taxi home.

now what should i do? study for prelims or watch my korean dramas *Secret Garden........hyun bin is SO GWAPO! hehehe.........not sure but ill think of something.........maybe ill study and when im tired ill watch....yup good idea! ill leave you guys with this vid! its been on repeat since i woke up!

boys

2010-12-11T05:44:00.000-08:00

special boys in my life :)

hes a hungry hippppooooo!
edited: everything is fixed now :) no more :( faces

pissed

2010-12-11T00:01:00.000-08:00

when im pissed i cut all ties of communication. i stay quiet and alone. i dont plan on working things out when im mad. id get more mad that way. so goodbye world for now. this is my pms.....ing...time...

sorry ian if your reading this, im not mad at you. ill call when i cooled off...........

overthinking

2010-12-09T08:03:00.000-08:00

i was thinking of the things that i would blog today just to let off steam. but now i forgot....what to type.

first is about how christmas is near meaning the CURSE is too....i guess i better get ready for my gynecologist.

second is about my priorities, school, tuition fee..and vacation....

third is about me + ian + school + europe + jobs + house + traveling + money = future plans

i have a lot more that i want to talk about but this is what i remember right now.

first is simple enough, i didnt get to go to my moms gynecologist last time i had the curse so when i get it this month i will surely visit her. ill be spending my christmas at my grandmas house :) ill be taking lots of pictures because im planning on giving them a photoframe full of their pictures for their 50+ wedding anniversary!

second...hmm...prelims are moved till next week...school isnt as bad...i got yelled at for sleeping in class earlier..i still went back to sleep....my bad : P ..... i need to pay at least half of my tuition fee or i wont be allowed to have my exams...vacation is only 1/2 week......that sucks...

me and ian was talking about how both of us are going to europe to live there, and just to make things clear, its not all sappy/corny talk. it was more like making a life long deal with him, not sure about anything yet but it makes me happy that he'll be willing to wait and go to wherever i want to go. he hates it when its cold but i love it, thats why i wanted to go to london/italy....he said he doesnt mind if hes cold, hed rather have that then hearing me complain about how hot it is, we also talked about this when i suggested living in australia and he shut me down in a second telling me i cant live there. figures? oh we also talked about the jobs that were going to get, ill be an anesthesiologist while he becomes an accountant! weird i know, but its because he wanted to stay at home more because he knows ill be too busy. if your ever reading this, please dont do that! do whatever you want to do and enjoy it! travelling along with ian would be a nice treat :)

relationships

2010-12-08T07:54:00.000-08:00

made me hella crack up! i love the 70 show!

i wonder why i barely say anything about my relationship to other people.

Be with her because you actually want to be with her, because you actually see a potential future with her, NOT because you are USED to being with her, NOT because you’re scared of the thought that being without them will RUIN you. The point of being in a relationship is to enjoy each others company, is to be there to support each other when they need it most. No, one-person, defines who you are. They only compliment you.

— MARVIN KING

i guess that explains it....we dont need to see each other everyday, even talk or be physically together. we both enjoy the time that we get to communicate with each other. the love and support can be felt from miles away. we compliment each other.

pride

2010-12-08T07:09:00.000-08:00

dont you just hate it when someone just intentionally embarrass you in public? seriously, it pisses me off. so today im going to rant. my clinical instructor just likes to pick on me and my group mates for a reason that i dont know. today we had to give/show her our sample charting for our patient and mine was right, but the thing that pissed me off was when she kept on yelling out why i cant remember my patients name! seriously?!! do you have to yell out to everyone that i cant remember my patient from two days ago?! telling/yelling out how im so incompetent and too young to even forget things? everybody heard it! even the freaking patient! how im i going to establish rapport now huh?! gah!! theres a lot more actually im just too mad to even talk about it. i actually dont mind if she ever told me that im forgetful because i do admit, i tend to forget things and it takes awhile for me to remember names *i remember faces more and i had like hella patients, do you really expect me to remember each single one? and oh why cant you just atleast privately tell me that? cant you whisper it to me in an angry voice? or something?!! even our leader got pissed because our c.i told her that shes incompetent and she doesnt have any friends. i mean wth right?! i know i maybe just over reacting but i just needed to get this off my chest before i blurt it out to someone else. i actually dont like doing that. it becomes a burden for me and whenever i hear myself complain i also get annoyed.

i dont mind getting criticized because i know they know better but why do they have do it in a way that crushes someones pride so much? iono. maybe im just too sensitive. even my patient thinks im stupid. do i really look stupid maybe clumsy, but stupid?...............nah dont answer. disappointed much. sigh.

stress

2010-12-07T18:57:00.000-08:00

whenever im stressed i paint and i listen to any song that fits the mood, its on repeat.

ive been on a caffeine binge. i even asked my friend to walk with me to look for soda/coffee in the middle of the night but to my dismay there was no stores open. all this night duty makes it so much harder to wake up in the morning and i have to wake up at 5 tom. for class. well gotta get used to it. im learning a lot and because of that im happy, even though i get yelled at once in a while because of my mistakes. mostly made when im unconsciously thinking/deciding. i need to get in control more. oh wells gotta do my journal, ncp and drug study and lets not forget charting.

my nursing diagnosis for myself:

headache related to disturbed sleeping pattern secondary to hospital duty.

edited:

hoooraaahhhh, im done with all my requirements! im rewarding myself by getting a coke float in mcdonalds :)

type

2010-12-07T08:43:00.000-08:00

im a blood type B and today i couldve saved someone......i should gain more weight so i can donate blood. my patient needed blood because she was overbleeding and we both have the same blood type but because i didnt go over the 50 kg range for the weight, i couldnt. so sad. new goal: gain weight and donate blood. if any of you guys are reading this, go out to hospitals and try donating blood, it really can save someones life!

2010

2010-12-06T21:35:00.000-08:00

im starting again. i know right? sarah why cant you just make up your mind. well i miss blogger. i think i was the one who introduced tumblr and now im backing away. oh wells. either follow or not. ill post here for awhile until i really do make up my mind. this bug has been following me for awhile.

MIA

2009-12-13T04:48:00.000-08:00

yups! my prelims for second semester is coming and i really cant afford to fail! I WILL NOT FAIL! and seriously i cant because biochemistry and anaphy is killing my grades right now, all my other classes are fine im just freaking lazy, so bye bye to facebook and other things.......

this is the only way!!

im going to be a hermit or something iono! lol!

gah! hell is week is coming.........

kim we can do this! i know we can!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO PAULTOTS! I MISS YOU!

and to everyone who is reading this, goodluck to all your finals and stuff!

my vacation starts on the 23rd, sucky doesnt it? oh well!

i dont even have time to buy presents but whateva its not like someone's gonna give me something hehe

ok bye bye i need to study now, wow isnt that the first time?! hehe........

im just happy that i dont have to do any homework! phew! hehe i hate homework id rather have hella quizzes than homework hehe.......

bye i love you all!

i hate this book......

yup i look like a hobo.....hehe.....im going to look like a mess forawhile so sowe...

yup i can do this! stare! i hate putting my hair up for my uniform....bleh.....

new...

2009-11-14T04:03:00.001-08:00

new school............thats all........

i miss..

but i cant...

im not suppose to...

but i do...

just because....

2009-11-08T00:02:00.001-08:00

kim_chi135: oh there was no macademia nuts in cosco
kim_chi135: what do u want instead?
sj: OH NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
sj: NO NO NO
sj: NO NO NO NO
kim_chi135: yeah darn costco!
sj: NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
sj: MAN
sj: THAT JUST MADE ME HELLA SAD
kim_chi135: dont be sad!
sj: NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1
sj: I WANTED MY MACADAMIAN NUTS!!!!!!!!!!!
kim_chi135: you can pick another one!
sj: NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11
sj: I ONLY WANTED THAT
sj: HUHUHUHUHUH
sj: NO...............

yes kim im going to cry...........huhuhu.......my chocolate.......

hola!

2009-11-04T03:43:00.000-08:00

surprised?

well because its my birthday i wanted to post something, well after that, i dont know....

so did you guys miss me? hehe...kidding....

well what have ive been doing?

well first comes first

first semester is done
second semester, ill be going to another school called University of Cordillera
i didnt fail any classes except for P.E. LOL! i know i suck....

thats what i mostly remember....

so my birthday is tomorrow...
5 month anniversary is tomorrow too!

dang.....hehe....

actually i made a list of the things that i was going to do for my birthday....but then im too lazy to look for that list.....i have too many post in this blog.....so if you guys ever found that post here in my blog, let me know or comment it to me....sorry for being lazy....but thank you if you ever found it....

i missed you guys! some of you stopped blogging so i dont really know what you guys are also up to, but well all just talk i guess.....

pictures?

......gah.....im lazy.....whatever here.....

went to the mall with ate christine and ate abigail, we dont have reunions as much but we try......we wanted to sing so we went to the karaoke place....after that we played cards....i barely lost hehe...

ate chris was helping me finish the puzzle....and we did! booyeah!

me and ate chris was hungry so we ate at andoks...yummy....this was after going to church

my outfits when i go out....

what i always see when i go home, tins of flowers because its the day of the dead here..

yup getting my diamond peeling...it hurts but its worth it..

yup was at the mall, and that is my costume..well whatever you call it, but then hella kids were dressed up, look at the dinosaur! hella cute! t

his girl is the coolest ghost we met.....hella good in taking pictures haha!

after that me and ate chris decided to get ear piercings....i changed and bought a new bellring......

i dont know when ill post again.....so i guess just keep on checking......byers......

gone....

2009-10-12T10:05:00.000-07:00

its upsetting not knowing things......im gone......you want to know something, ask me.....i wont blog anymore.....

vlog

2009-10-12T07:51:00.001-07:00

sorry if you cant understand what im saying, you really dont have to watch my crapness.....hehe.....

happy birthday mama!

2009-10-12T06:32:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY MOM!

one of the pictures we took before she left to go back

thank you mom for everything, i dont know what else to say since i know that you know that i love you and i trully respect you! thanks for letting me go and having my own freedom! thanks for all the trust and love! i know its hard letting me go, but i really really do thank you...... i really do miss you! and dont worry i wont let you down and everybody! dont worry about me much since im in good hands! i love you!! thank you for being so understanding of me...

what i miss most about her?

her cooking

her nagging

and everything LOL!

i love you mom! and happy birthday!

3

2009-10-08T04:40:00.000-07:00

i watched 3 movies today.....

for some reason, all of them are musicals!

the first one was highschool musical the last movie, and then dreamgirls, and then right now is mamma mia!!

haha yeah my boring life....but then i like watching them hehe....

for some reason they show a lot of movies here that are new!

ill blog again.......

i think...

2009-10-07T20:15:00.000-07:00

i lost my mind!

just because i tried to go out earlier during the huge storm! i didnt know that they canceled school today, but even though it was canceled i still wanted to go to the mall...just because i dont like being stuck here at home doing nothing.....

so i tried to go out....i wasnt even that far from our house, and i came back! freaking soaking wet.......seriously! i thought my umbrella was going to die...you guys really wouldnt know how hard the rain and wind is if your not here....

yeah so now im in my bed drinking coffee while eating the mongo bread that i bought yesterday!.....

waiting again.....

gah!! i really wanted to go out...

and oh cess i meant, you know how the rain is suppose to go down? the rain is seriously going sideways! i wish we wouldnt get flooded, because our neighbors did.....dun dun dun....

and oh i say that i lost my mind because earlier while i was making my coffee, i was grabbing the spoon and rice to put in my cup LOL! and then i stopped and looked at what i was doing...i was like....dang what im thinking?!! hahah! i had a blonde moment! but i think i was just shocked about the rain LOL!

and oh yesterday was the first time i went to school with flip flops on, it was so uncomfortable, but i had to because all my shoes are wet......i was so paranoid, i kept on looking at my feet.....yups it was weird.....i dont like people looking at my feet....

on another note, i think im really lucky that classes are canceled today since i didnt do my book report for english kekeke......i mean i want to do it, but then i really dont want to finish the book that im reading yet!! i want to take my time, and not because i have to for a book report....its the book that i told you guys about before "A MILLION LITTLE PIECES".....i guess i have to finish it this weekend....darn...

so how are you guys doing?

my first semester is ending soon and im waiting for finals to end....my birthday is coming soon!! i would be so happy about it but then i bet im going to do nothing...

my wish is.......____________________

i really dont know what to ask for since im content.....im not really a materialistic person...

maybe a new laptop since this one is dying, or an iphone kekeke......kidding!! i just want someone here.....i hope you can still come even though its not on my birthday.....oh i forgot that im 18 and i should be having a debut...meh....

mad

2009-10-07T05:09:00.000-07:00

Nothin' [fighting for]
Nothin' [crying for]
Nothin' [whooaaa]
But we wont let it go for nothin'
[no not for]
Nothin'
This should be nothin' to a love like what we got
Ohhh baby...

I know sometimes it's gonna rain
but baby, can we make up now
'cause I can't sleep through the pain
[can't sleep through the pain].

(CHORUS)
Girl, i don't wanna go to bed
[mad at you]
And i don't want you to go to bed
[mad at me]
No, i don't wanna go to bed
[mad at you]
And i don't want you to go to bed
[mad at me]
Ohhh no no no...

i forgot...

2009-10-04T04:55:00.000-07:00

i really seriously forgot that im allergic to chicken...

and i ate some today...

and now im all itchy...

gah my throat is itchy...

and my arms are itchy...

call me itchy lady hehe...

that rhymes hehe...

man im a dork and a looser with a big capital L!!!

and i bet you forgot what today is.....yups you forgot...you know who you are...

and oh i cleaned my room today, my mom got me these "cheetah girl" comforters and even though its really girly, its really warm...so THANK YOU MOM! but then i still wouldve picked what din din have!!

yup thats me..

i cleaned everything...its refreshing and i have new bedding's

what else? hmm i actually dont know who reads my blog and how often you guys check, i really want to know, but then i dont know how...

if ever i get tired of people reading my blog, ill make it private...

and yes raymond, ill finish the song and you have dibs of hearing it first ok? maybe ill post it here or we can webcam again like earlier...i hope we wont have those technical errors again LOL!

and man! benny i forgot the names!! i accidentally deleted it, and now i forgot....post it up again, all i can remember is mine!

pho phat: phat sarah LOL!

man ill post the rest....when i get them...

yups...thats what happened today...

i may be blogging a lot and going on tumblr because i barely do much stuff around here...and im not allowed to go out because of the storm...so ill blog away...i hope you guys do too, because if you guys stopped blogging, i will eventually make mines private and the only way your going to read it is if you asked me....ok?

i dont like the thought of people only knowing what i did, while i dont know what happened to theirs...

yeah im pointing my finger at you!!!

sis talk!

2009-10-03T01:35:00.000-07:00

me: man ill pass because im raw like that!!

sister: haha! like SUSHI!!

me: haha!!

man i love my sister, oh we both got in trouble, im not sure though haha, i told my mom about my piercing and she told mom that she broke her camera haha! were both a double couple in trouble yessum!!! haha!

yeah i talked to her earlier, man kim! i know your reading this! you should go more online so that i can talk to you!!! yeah we barely talk thats why, but when we do we talk a lot heheh!

yesssurrybob!!!

me and my sister are total dorks, i think people cant relate to our joke haha! were just raw like that LOL!

yup i miss you kim and din!

i wish you guys can come here so we can go out and eat everything we want, i would hella pay for it!!!

hehe...but its fine, i can wait and ill also study hard, dont worry kim, im a good girl here, even though i got a piercing without consent haha! that was only once, im not drinking or getting high, i even go home early, so dont worry about me and worry more about yourself ok? study hard and be a good sister to din din, thats maybe a lot, but if i can do it for the both of you, you can do it for din din! okies?! i know you can do it, your just too nice sometimes, but thats good! and dont worry about me and ian, we may have our bad times, but it goes back to normal, ians a good guy haha! and you probably know since he goes there lol!

yups i miss you.....

i look super red here! i think it was a hot day that day! LOL!

curse...

2009-10-02T20:06:00.000-07:00

i now have a new pimple on one of my cheeks.....i hate it when my curse comes.....my hormones are so imbalanced! crapness!.......

but its always on a weekend, which im happy about because i dont have to miss school for it......it still hurts like crazy though....thanks ben for the midol, its helping a lot.....

heres a description of what happens to me when i have my curse:

i either get a pimple, i cant walk or eat much, all i do is stay at one place, i start to shiver because of the pain, i either pass out or feel like im having a fever, my back i mean everything hurts.....

weird huh? and yes i am feeling it right now.....im not shivering yet but its because the medicine is helping me....

this really sucks!

i dont know if this only happens to me, but for some reason when other girls get there curses, its like nothing to them, why does affect me so much though? i dont get it! seriously its a pain!! this is why i wish i was a guy at times......

i cant move right now, so all i can do is type.....

pepeng

2009-10-02T04:08:00.000-07:00

a new storm or SUPERSTORM is coming again and we named this storm PEPENG....please pray for us, because Baguio is one of the places that is going to get hit and also for all of the other places, evacuation is going on right now so we should hope that things wouldnt get worse then it already is....i hope things would settle down soon because tom is my ate christines 19th birthday!! i was going to get her something but im too scared to go out in the storm...

and also thats why they canceled our classes today.....the whole philippines is in a state of calamity, so please pray for us.....

omg!! 1,100 died from an earthquake and a tsunami just hit killing a lot of people *both in different countries.....i forgot what part of the world since the news was really fast!! im so scared right now....its like the end of the world is coming....please please please i hope you are wrong......please.......that person who said it!! please i hope your wrong!!!

lets all pray.....for all of our safety!!

be updated and watch the news....

distance...

2009-10-02T02:41:00.000-07:00

sorry for today, im just happy it was short, i guess all of our past convo's didnt end well, thats why it all came boiling down today....i dont know if it ended well since i started to get mad again....not fully though....sorry if i do...i understand the situation but it just doesnt go through me...i dont know if ill ever understand it....i shouldnt judge but i do, sorry.....and i bet people know this, when i dont like something/someone, i really dont like them, and im sorry if i do....i may not have a concrete reason but it shouldnt be a reason for my behavior.....sorry if my words were harsh.....but i hope this doesnt happen again.....i really dont like that feeling we get when we do have misunderstandings.....

i just hope things would get better.....for the both of us, were both having problems of our own and we both try to not burden each other, but i hope that we can talk about it.....like i said before, id rather know something then nothing, i dont care if its good or not....id get mad and all but id still go back to normal....its not easy being far away from each other, but were still together, so i atleast know were both trying right?.....i just hope we wont get tired of trying and waiting for each other....sorry for making your eyes all sweaty...i keep doing that for some reason....sorry....

i really just dont want to loose our contact from each other.....because it seems like the distance is really showing up now.......i really keep the distance out of my head......but recently....its been showing up.....

just a fact: i barely tell my family i miss them when we webcam....its just hard to say.....weird huh?

its because if i do....the distance shows itself....so i dont, its like im also there with them....

when you dont tell me whats bothering you, the distance shows........does that makes sense?

i dont know......but i just hope that well get through this.....well get through this right?

83 more days until Christmas! i hope you can still come here like you said, but if you cant, ill understand.....

so well get through this!!!

belly piercing...

2009-10-01T04:12:00.000-07:00

a new thing to start the month

yup i think i was crazy today LOL! im joking, but then today i went with my friend melody to this one tattoo shop that also does piercings....well she also has piercings herself....so we were just walking and then we passed by it.....and then bam, i got it haha! i didnt think otherwise, i just asked how much it was and then went in LOL! how reckless huh? dont worry i wont get any infections or anything since i hella clean it....and yeah i just wanted one, i was thinking of getting one on the day of my birthday, but you know what? that would just make my day crappy since i would be all paranoid of it, so by the time my birthday comes, my belly will be already all done! this is my gift for myself! just a reminder that im getting old hehe.....and it will be healed in one month! what great timing right?

and yes, i just did it on a whim.....it didnt hurt, maybe just a sting when he put in the needle, but that was it, no blood or anything, i bet it didnt even last like 5 minutes haha!

so this is a start hehe.....dont worry, you wont see any piercings in my face i just dont do that...i like my belly and its hidden so how about it?

i took a vid but then i wont put it here, because i dont want my sis to see since she doesnt like those haha!

kim i got one!!!! dont tell mama yet until my birthday ok?!

and oh after i got it....i kept getting paranoid, so i bought myself MOO...it made me feel better...while drinking it all i thought of was you...its the first time i drank it again since i left...

morning...

2009-09-30T14:42:00.000-07:00

i woke up 5 in the morning...i dont know why...

im surprised to know im awake...

i wish i can go to sleep again...

ill try again....

cheaters...

2009-09-30T05:07:00.000-07:00

i was watching something that was talking about infidelity....it gave me the worst feeling ever....

cheat on other people go ahead, cheat on me, you will never see me again.....

cheaters can go kiss my ass......yeah that will be the first time you will hear that.......

surprised? don't be...thats how much i hate infidelity....

and oh to whoever is reading this, dont worry ian didnt do anything, i just dont like cheaters ok? lol!

new....

2009-09-29T07:46:00.000-07:00

i havent posted a pict of myself lately...if you guys were wondering of what i looked like, there it goes! sorry i looked tired, but yeah.....thanks joana for the southpole shirt! thats the first southpole shirt i have actually...

first pic was taken weeks ago, while the second was a week ago? i dont know.....but see how my hair is growing? i actually miss my long hair......

so thats it......

i would post up more but then yeah....

man raymond i forgot what you said about the joke! now i cant post it up, i just remember saying you dont have an a** haha! you should tell me again lol! i fail at remembering things.....

and my birthday is coming up soon! one month more! yessum!! but it sucks that i dont have my family here.....but no worries, i have my cousin and my aunt and uncle! ill get my belly button ring too! if i can find a place to get it first! reallly really clean place to get it, man i dont want any infections haha! yeah....i hope ian comes here soon.......but then i dont want to risk it since theres a storm......christmas is coming too!!! i wish the storm would just fade away....

i got some clothes today....but then the clothes are so wrong!! its not mine!!! omg! they mixed them up!!! i wish they didnt give away the clothes that were meant for me!! seriously.....i want my clothes....sorry ian if they mixed it up...ill try to get it....

im freaking 18!!!

in addition....im very lucky that it doesn't flood here, i really do feel sorry for all the people that were affected by the flood, please pray for them and also for the whole Philippines that we can recover from this terrible event....right now if you have the time, please have a moment of silence and pray for them....

if you haven't seen any of the tragic events that happened, go to the web or even my tumblr, i have pictures there....and also if your kind enough, it would be nice to lend some help or even just spread the word that we need help! really now! people are starving and dying! ill try to join the red cross in my school, and see if i can help in any way.....so spread the love and the prayers and lets hope that the next storm wont do as much damage then the other one have......yes another storm is coming.....please pray for us.....

salad...

2009-09-27T18:07:00.000-07:00

i had the weirdest dream...

ian was in it and also my mom....

i dont know what exactly happened, but all i can remember was giving everyone some salad, other people was there but i cant remember....

SALAD ANYONE?

bad sunday...

2009-09-27T06:54:00.001-07:00

im sorry ate christine....i think it was also my fault....sorry....

this is why i go out only by myself.....

sorry...

something bad really happened today...

sigh...

its really getting cold here now...

christmas is just somewhere around the corner...

will you still come?

meet the robinsons...

2009-09-26T08:45:00.000-07:00

i just finished watching it in disneychannel....i love it! whoever is reading this go watch it right now!! i love it!!! you wont regret it.....this is an addition to my "on repeat movies"...i have certain movies that if i watch the whole day, i still wont get tired of it.....like "UP" and other more...

KEEP MOVING FORWARD!!!

just something i need...

such moving words...

Lyrics:

Let it go
Let it roll right off your shoulder
Don't you know
The hardest part is over
Let it in
Let your clarity define you
In the end
You will only just remember how it feels

Our lives are made
In these small hours
These little wonders
These twists and turns of fate
Time falls away,
But these small hours
These small hours
Still remain

Let it slide
Let your troubles fall behind you
Let it shine,
Till you feel it all around you
And I don't mind
If it's me you need to turn to
We'll get by
It's the heart that really matters in the end

Our lives are made
In these small hours
These little wonders
These twists and turns of fate
Time falls away
But these small hours
These small hours
Still remain

All of my regret
Will wash away somehow
But I cannot forget
the way I feel right now

In these small hours
These little wonders
These twists and turns of fate
Yeah, these twisted turns of fate
Time falls away
Yeah, but these small hours,
These small hours
Still remain

Yeah, oh they still remain
These little wonders
All these twists and turns of fate
Time falls away
But these small hours
These little wonders
Still remain

who wouldnt....

2009-09-26T04:51:00.000-07:00

i blame myself sometimes for my irrational mood swings...

i wouldnt blame you if you doubt or dont believe me...

because of what i said...

i wouldnt be surprised if you were upset with me...

or mad or frustrated or disappointed or bored and even tired...

i wouldnt blame you...

who wouldnt right?

so if you are just say it....i atleast said something...

no need for why's? ok then...well always be assuming things...which will end up wrong...and then after that, everything will be wrong....

i assumed things and i know im wrong.....you do too, so were both wrong.....

so what do we do now?

you decide....so sorry for everything...

yeah i broke the sorry rule....sorry.....

i just miss the old days like you....

and yeah i miss you too....

i dont show that much emotions since im a rock sorry...

you like a rock...did that made sense?

i wish i was as soft as that mochi....mochi anyone?

floozy

2009-09-25T20:24:00.000-07:00

ben: YOU DON'T EVEN REMEMBER YOUR OWN NUMBER?!?!

me: hahahaha

me: i really dont

ben: what a floozy

me: hahaha whats that?

i need to go to the dentist later......two of my molar brackets came off.......i lost it now i have to pay for it!!! darn! one little bracket is 10 dollars!! i lost two!!! well i mean 3 haha!!! man my mom got mad at me for it.....yeah yeah i know..........but man........i hate braces........

thanks ben for helping my sister!! and yes they will always call you kuya k? get used to it!!

now i gotta get ready....

2nd posting...

2009-09-24T09:28:00.001-07:00

Tan
i cant open my blogspot…so this will have to do…(edited)
today i didnt pass my psychology quiz because of…
Mr. Tan…
yup, the irritating Mr. Tan…
so today while i was sitting by myself and also sipping my drink…i was at the cafeteria and there was a lot of people…
i was reading my notes…and then when i looked up…there he is….Mr. Tan…i think his first name is Gregorio? iono…but he hella surprised me…
but i dont even know why he wanted to sit right next to me…
so awkward…since we both bash at each other in class sometimes…
but you know what? i couldnt study because he cant stop talking….seriously….hes nice and all but i need space to think…..so all i could to is to be polite and talk back….
weirdly he also got braces…it was weird talking to him since he wont shut it….
we tried studying together……it didnt work well…..group studying does not fit me…AT ALL…
gah…i didnt pass…i shouldve stayed in starbucks and studied there….
i keep seeing him for some reason….i was walking home….and then he just said hi out of nowhere…..and in the morning going to class, hes with me in the elevator…coincidence much…
i dont know….but Mr. Tan…please dont talk as much…cause it gives me a headache…
but i learned something new, he went to europe and stuff…..thats why hes kinda fluent in english….but came back here since he didnt like it there….
but if your reading this Mr. Tan….your nice, but listen more…

and did i mention i love glee? yeah im watching it....they are showing the episodes here in the philippines now, heck yeah! ive been hella waiting for it eversince...

man!! hes hella good! i love him!

and this one just reminded me of michelle LOL!!!! remember our dance?

lyrics:
now what a minute ya'll
this dance aint for everybody
only the sexy people
so all you fly mothers
dance i say!!!

i love him too!

3.....

2009-09-23T16:11:00.000-07:00

i woke up at exactly 3 in the morning today......i couldnt sleep after...so i stayed up all night distracting myself...

i dreamt of someone two nights in a row, and i cant point a finger of why i am dreaming about that person....and then i remembered that i read something, something that, that person told me before which made a huge impact to me.....so another person saying it again lets me remember how much it has left me....

i dont know if its good or not, since i can only remember the face but not what happened....in my dream....

but i really do remember being avoided and being talked to after.....like nothing was wrong.....

but i woke up......and then i couldnt sleep......my sister gave me the letters i kept.....all i did was reread them....

everything changed so much that i couldnt believe what i was reading anymore....

but its still nice to reminisce...

so now i have the biggest eyebugs you will ever see....

i read the stories too...how ironic...

i miss everything......

i studied...

2009-09-23T04:52:00.000-07:00

i bet you guys know that i barely study right? or i dont study at all, so im really wondering why im passing my classes especially tagalog, so i got bored today and i actually studied hahaha......yes im terrible ok? i know it!!......so i did for my nursing class.....

so i think i got motivated because i got jealous at this one girl who was always no. 1 in our class, so i wanted to do something about it, so while we were in class, whenever she read, i read, whenever she stopped i stopped, and yeah im a copier!! but you know what!!!

yeah i hecka aced that test, well we both did in the entire class! heck yeah!! so when our prof called out both our names, i was so freaking happy! because she wasnt the only one who aced it hehehe!

i dont know if i just motivated myself or something or jealousy got to me haha! this just shows that i can do really good if i study, it sucks that it only last for a little while because im going to be lazy now, lol im kidding, ill do better now.......actually if i only studied in all of my classes, i bet i would be in the deans list......craps.....

dont worry ill do better and study more....ok? dont get mad at me hehe....

tumblr...

2009-09-20T08:56:00.001-07:00

http://luckbug.tumblr.com/

wonder...

2009-09-20T08:02:00.000-07:00

i just wonder...

i cant sleep right now, even though im tired and i want to sleep...

something is keeping me up...

so i decided to reread my tumblr, and yes i have one, probably had one before everyone else got into it....

i actually stopped because everyone was using it....and also because i was more comfortable with blogspot....

so i reread.....and then i found other peoples tumblr...so i keep on reading...and...

i actually miss my tumblr...but then its been so long that i dont want to use it anymore...

so i was thinking of having another one, since i dont have a life right now and all i do is go to the internet.....seriously!

i hate myself sometimes for constantly checking my mail for updates.....thats why when i go out, i dont bring my laptop....i just bring my book.....but the internet is the only connection with the ones i love, so you really cant blame me....and im a paranoid freak....

and if you were wondering what was in my tumblr, dont wonder....and if you are a real stalker, dont look for it, because youll never find it muahahaha! kidding....

so ill start one right now, since i cant sleep and there is no school tom....

i wonder what time your going to wake up......wake up soon.....so we can talk.....

i miss my mom, dad, sister, brother, my aunts, uncles, cousins, friends and i cant forget about my special someone.....

i guess another reason why i stopped tumblr was because every quote reminded me more of the people i miss....

i dont like being reminded over and over.....

dont worry......ill still blog here.....

webcam pics!

2009-09-20T06:01:00.000-07:00

i was rereading my posts....and i havent been uploading pics.....it look so dull!! gah i hate it...so im sorry....sorry for the bleh postings....

ill post more pics now....

but since i cant find my adapter for my cp yet, ill post some webcam pics i have with people...

this pics are in random order and also its been awhile, i dont webcam with people alot, so when i do, i take a pic with them....

my silliness with other people goes to another level LOL!

sorry jessica!! i didnt post sooner!!!

yeah we like taking pictures!!

haha stuff toys rock! me, jessica and ben....LOL!

yeah that was just earlier LOL! i have the biggest eyes!

we love weird face expressions!

the 4 of us, ate abigail and ate christine! not much space for my face hehe

i was eating junk food....i forgot the name of it, but it was shaped like a star lol! it was good! i dont know what my bro was eating...

lol sorry ian, i just had to post this, i love this pic!!

i miss poot poot...let me see her more ian!? pweess?

and yeah we both had our gradnight tshirt on, so yeah we took a pic! hella ghetto!

more pics are about to come....and if i havent taken a picture with you! its because you dont want to talk or webcam with me!! haha kidding! or im i? LOL!

weird weather...

2009-09-19T21:15:00.000-07:00

i went to starbucks yesterday...in the afternoon...it started to rain hard again...isnt that weird? in the morning it was super hot and there was no sign of an upcoming storm...but bleh...i have the fan on again right now...but i bet it will rain again later...so i went...it was nightime...and then you can see the sky light up again because of the thunders...like i said...it was a pretty sight...so i was there, sipping my mocha frap, while reading my book "a million little pieces" and looking at the window...sometimes its nice being alone...and oh before i went to starbucks, i went to eat first in the foodcourts...im getting used to eating alone...the food doesnt talk so i dont need to talk either...its a good relationship...i love food...its a bad thing but i turn to food for comfort...do you? i bet you do...

after that i went home...

its really too hot for me to blog right now...

so ill continue later...

thunder...

2009-09-18T05:53:00.000-07:00

thunder...one after another...lighting up the sky...making those loud *really loud noises...

there was a storm today, unlucky me....

i went to school today...in the morning it was really hot...after that...the afternoon came...i couldnt go to the dentist because i had a dermatologist appointment...teeth or face? i pick face...so i went...got my meds and also treatment...went out...and then bam...really strong winds and rain....and thunder...its a nice sight actually if you think about it...its like the night sky is having a disco LOL! bad example.....sorry........well i bet you guys can imagine that.....i stayed in the shade for awhile...i didnt have an umbrella....so i bought one...the crappiest and cheapest one...that was the only thing available...so i was thinking about walking to the mall, since there was a lot of taxi's there, so i did......by the time i reached the mall......i was soaking wet.....literally....from my head to my toes.....the umbrella that i bought.....didnt help because it was leaking....so i was still getting rained on....it was dark, cold and also very wet....my shoes are flooded...so when i got to the mall.....i went to starbucks....and bought a mocha frap....dont ask why i bought it....i know its cold....but i was craving for it....so after that.....no taxi's came....

imagine me...

drenched in water, holding my mocha frap at the side of the road and waiting for a taxi....so i waited......i couldnt take it.....so i went downhill to go to the jeeps, so thats actually like 15 min of walking? maybe longer....walking in wet shoes is not really admirable....and i bet people thought that i was crazy because i was sipping starbucks during a cold storm......but i guess i was.....i guess i went numb that i couldnt feel the cold anymore....so i walked....and then i got to the jeeps.....waited......then i got home....took a shower....and now here i am......

i wouldnt be surprised if tom i catch a cold or a fever or worse faint again....

ive become numb to the cold.....actually if youve noticed....im always cold....well thats what other people tell me.....i always have cold hands.....

well thats what happened today....just wanted to blog just because im bored and i thought the thunder storm was pretty nice....i actually wanted to get rained on, just because....but i know that someone will get mad at me if i did......

but the rain was nice....the thunder was nice.....and the wind was nice....plus the mocha frap was delicious.....getting rained on wasnt that bad.....

im so used to the rain now...it doesnt bother me....even if the roads get flooded....

i want another mocha frap....

on another note...

i saw one of my old bestfriends....BIANCA....if you really know me...i bet i told you about her....i dont know if it was fate or just plain coincidence...but we were both inside the elevator.....i really know it was her.....i will never forget her face....i dont know if she noticed me.....but i bet she did.....because she was looking at my arm...its not really hard to forget that i have the biggest birthmark.....its just awkward seeing her....how she changed.....but for some reason.....i still knew her....her style of clothing...the way she was talking to other people.......i actually miss her.....i wanted to talk to her......but i kept on thinking....what for? what would i say to her? how are you doing? do you remember me? your friend who abandoned you? the one you abandoned? yeah seems like a good way to start a conversation huh? NOT!.....so after that......we were on the same floor....i never knew....so i just walked without looking at my back.....but i bet she was looking at me.....i felt it.......i also saw her looking at me in the elevator.....because i looked at her back........i wonder if that will happen to me when i go back to the U.S......i wonder if people would say hi to me or just brush me off like i was nothing......im not sure......but if it does happen......dont wonder if ill do the same.....

i have...

2009-09-17T17:19:00.000-07:00

stopped drinking milk...

stopped taking pictures...

stopped eating breakfast at home...

tried thinking about things less...

tried to care less (impossible)

tried to stop myself from over analyzing everything...

tried to keep myself busy...

tried to stop being so nosy...

tried to think that im not in other peoples business so i should keep out...

tried to think more positive....

been wondering less about things...

been waking up early in the morning....earlier than youll ever know...

been reading more...

been socializing more...

been eating more...

been sleeping earlier...

been walking around more...

expected less from everybody...

been alone for too long than i can remember...

actually i dont want to remember...

what kept...

2009-09-14T18:53:00.000-07:00

my morning happy!!!

*and yes we are silly....1st pic, yes thats my sis foot on my bro's face LOL!

i love them....

boredness......

2009-09-14T06:53:00.000-07:00

01. You’re currently confused about someone’s feelings for you.
02. You have been in a serious relationship before.
03. You own an iPod of some sort.
04. You do not like your sibling’s girlfriend/boyfriend.
05. You drink too much alcohol.
06. You have been to the Olive Garden.
07. You have taken medicine of some sort this week.
08. It is really cold in your house right now.
09. You are extremely dependent on others.
10. You do not like to express your feelings in front of others.
11. You ate a lot of food today.
12. It doesn’t take much for you to cry.
13. People consider you a sappy sort of person.
14. Someone in your family is rich.
15. You have been to Disney World or Disneyland before.
16. You hate when people constantly talk about themselves.
17. You are a good listener, but you hate complainers.
18. Someone has called you for a serious medical emergency before.
19. You have had a serious surgery.
20. Your house has a spare bedroom.
21. Your house is old.
22. You have at least one cousin under the age of three.
23. You have never held a baby before.
24. You can’t handle toddlers.
25. You have a painting in your room.
26. You have been to Canada.
27. You have been to Mexico.
28. You love cherry flavored lollipops.
29. You celebrate Easter.
30. You observe Lent.
31. You are Catholic.
32. You do not believe in God.
33. Religion is not important to you.
34. You want to have a small family one day.
35. You would rather have more sons than daughters.
36. You have more aunts than uncles.
37. You hate being too cold.
38. You currently are way more tan than everyone else.
39. You wear shoes in your house.
40. Your parents are clean freaks.
41. You are more messy than clean.
42. You are currently angry at someone.
43. Patience is so not a virtue to you.
44. Your desk is extremely clean.
45. Your bed sheets are either blue, green, black, or white.
46. When you hear “black & white” it reminds you of Katy Perry’s ‘Hot n Cold’ song.
47. You have no clue what that song is.
48. You think rap artists are completely pathetic.
49. You are glad George Bush will be out of office.
50. Politics are boring to you.
51. You take a vitamin daily.
52. You feel like you are sick often.
53. You hate throwing up.
54. You think it’s gross when people set food down on their desk at school with no napkin.
55. You also find it gross that people sit on top of desks.
56. You are now cringing at the thought of someone’s food where someone’s ass was.
57. You love getting bubble baths.
58. You do not like chocolate at all.
59. You are allergic to nuts.
60. You have been stung by a bee before.
61. You have been to the emergency room before for something.
62. One of your parents is 50 or older.
63. You are the baby of your immediate family.
64. You hate broccoli.
65. Cooked carrots are good, though.
66. You go on tumblr too much.
67. You are really comfortable right now.
68. You like witty t-shirts.
69. You are a major fan of underground bands.
70. You have been on an airplane before.
71. You are not afraid of heights.
72. You consider yourself paranoid.
73. You have had a panic attack before.
74. The thought of being old and alone bothers you.
75. You would choose the elderly over children.
76. You feel like you’re living in the wrong decade.
77. You have smoked weed before.
78. You think it’s way too cold outside right now.
79. You love the thought of sleeping in tomorrow morning.
80. You would rather go to bed early and get up early.
81. You feel like the early bird catches the worm.
82. You are a big breakfast eater.
83. You are currently suffering from the common cold.
84. You are craving something salty.
85. You have been in a car today.
86. There is something plugged in near you.
87. You have heard of the TV show “Private Practice.”
88. You do not like medical television shows.
89. You prefer horror to comedies.
90. You adore Leo & Kate.
91. You think high-waisted pants look good.
92. You hate cheesy movies.
93. You enjoy camping out.
94. Bugs don’t bother you.
95. You do well in school without trying.
96. You are extremely jealous of someone currently.
97. You feel like you have changed a lot from 08-09.
98. You like energy drinks.
99. You like italics.
100. You know the entire script of Mean Girls.

happy birthday!

2009-09-14T05:14:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO PRINCESS AND ALSO MY COUSIN LAUREN!!

i hope you like it cess......my message is in there already...sorry its kinda late...having problems uploading it...

and lauren if your reading this, sorry that i dont have that much pics with you but i hope that your having the best birthday EVER! and i hope your doing well with everything! stay faithful and also happy as always! we love you!! families stick together, and whenever you need us, well try our best to be there for you, i may be far away but i hope our connections wont fade....love lots SARAH......

on another note:

i went to church yesterday.....and then the mall after.....that wasnt such a good idea....i dont know if its also a good idea to put it here, but let me just say that it was embarrassing and also something that happened before that i mentioned, and its not good.....im not going to go out as much anymore because of it....because im afraid that it might happen again....and its really bad when that happens and no one is there with you........but im ok now....i think?....my body somehow doesnt want to cooperate with me....ill be fine..........i will......just tired.....

ill post pictures in my next posting......sorry....

dont...

2009-09-11T16:48:00.000-07:00

take me for granted....

im hard to come by.....

in other news....

i dont want to go to school today just to turn in a stupid midterm.....its saturday darnit!....yeah its a take home midterm....for college algebra, its hella easy but i dont know why people are failing that class, whatever.....man i really dont want to go.....i want to sleep in my bed.....and never go anywhere......

going to school just to turn in a stupid paper........sheesh......stupidness....sigh....

i dont know about my other midterms.....i didnt study well enough......i just read my manual and thats it.......im really bad at memorizing now......my memory is going to a downfall......stuck knowledge is all that i have, and i dont know if i have enough to let me pass.......

*singing

paper roses.......paper roses .......

tired....

2009-09-11T00:49:00.001-07:00

sorry ben if i cant reply in a way you want me to....

im really too tired......this midterms week is actually really stressing me.....

yes......ill post next time.....

debates...

2009-09-10T05:04:00.000-07:00

i bet if you really do read my blog, you probably read about my "debate?" with ben about my other post that i made, dont worry we are not arguing or anything, i dont have bad feelings for him for saying those things, and me and him have this kind of talks once in a while, so dont think of this badly....

well if you read it, i dont know if you would either think it made sense or not? i dont know, but we have both different opinions and we do stick to it....the talk got into longer conversations that led to one thing to another.....its too long for me to explain, and i bet you guys know that i dont like explaining much.....

and i bet ben is reading this too, and oh the other post.....ill really post it dont worry, i didnt forget....just when im feeling better ok?

i dont know really how to explain how our conversation went but im just going to say that it was entertaining and also pretty darn interesting, but it was ok, it was something to talk about.....

both of us just wanted to get our points across each other, but then it really didnt end well, well i think it didnt because of certain distractions and certain internet problems.....

i bet you guys understood what me and him was talking about right?

and if you also have your own opinion, its fine go ahead and tell me, im not really going to bash you because you said something to me, i bet i would be more willing to listen.....but sorry ben that it ended like this, im really tired so until another debate! and i guess we will talk about this again....

and also im tired because i got my package from my mom....yeah, my room is a mess....

break.....

2009-09-09T08:59:00.000-07:00

im studying right now....

and im on a break....

im studying my psychology manual....so yeah it makes me think a lot...

and i just realized how people put up for me for so long....i bet you guys get sick of me....

im super stubborn, and i bet a lot of people know this
i dont listen
im super lazy
i order people around a lot
im a freeloader even though i hate it
i get so negative
my mood swings a lot...i mean a lot.....
im so strict with things
i dont explain myself much, making it hard for people to understand what im saying
im so forgetful
im hard hearted
im messy
i get so manipulative
im a fatty
............and i bet i have more bad qualities.........

i congratulate my family for putting up with a person like me for 17 years! lol! and also to my friends who have stayed with me through all the bad times and didnt let me go......

i have this mentality actually.....my friends actually only last for either 3 or 4 years....and after that we would go our separate ways......and i can prove it, i dont know if its coincidental, but.......when i was in 1st grade, i have this one friend.....i was friends with him since 3rd grade until he left....i bet my close friends know about Bianca.....she was my friend until she backstabbed me....2nd grade until 5th when we broke apart...so 5th grade, Leslie and Lucille came....we were friends since freshman year in highschool, until i went to the U.S......and then i bet you guys know what else happened.......

i keep on wondering if this cycle of 3 to 4 years will keep on going.....i hope it doesnt.....but if you have stayed with me for more than those years.....lol i congratulate you and also i feel bad for you that your stuck with a person like me....lol! sorry ian!

but i love you guys, either you have stayed with me or not.......

i actually miss them......

i think the person that ive been friends with since freshman year is no other than PRINCESS METRAN, lol! and man shes still there, gurl! i love you! and to my other friends i hope that our connections wont fade away....because i really dont like loosing friends...those are some of the things i regret actually....

keep in contact with me ok?.......

bad week....

2009-09-09T07:17:00.000-07:00

had my TFN and chemistry lecture midterms today...

i should have studied more.....

im not going to jinx it....so ill stay quiet.....

im really terrible in memorizing names.......gosh darnits.......sigh.......

im going to have my psychology, filipino and english midterms tom.........woohoo? yeah right.....

im having a crappy week.....

i hope you guys are doing better than me......

i would put pictures up, but then im being lazy and im tired....sorry.....

and oh.....i hate insects....i have 7 bites right now in my legs....how the heck did i even get those? i dont know but i think its because i put some lotion on......i guess i smelled really sweet....lesson learned.....never use lotion anymore......and i keep wondering where those ants are coming from, when i just cleaned my whole room....and i bet you guys dont know this, but im really paranoid so i use rubbing alcohol in cleaning my stuff....lol! yeah im obsessive compulsive about that...

whatever......

and also.....im loosing my appetite......i dont know why......but i am.....i guess im going to loose a couple of pounds......sigh......i cant swallow vegetables right.....ever since i got my braces.....i dont know....im just not in the mood to eat.....

eating alone doesnt really urge me to eat a lot.....

sorry for the negativity.......

for some reason i keep picturing myself that ill be like hella bitter when i get old......ill be old and bitter.....sounds about right........i dont know......but yeah.......

jealousy doesnt really help either.....i also want some company....but sigh......

good news?

uhm.......i met the new rivermaya *filipino band.... last sunday when i went to the mall, i have pictures with them and also a poster with there signatures.....yups!! i have vids of them playing too hehe, i was singing with them....

well thats about it.......

crapness.....

2009-09-08T00:16:00.000-07:00

this is officially the worst day ever......

i went to school early because everyone said that its our midterms.....i went........no one was there....so i went home.....and then my other classmate texted me saying there is......so i went back.....and there isnt......so i went back home.....and then my other classmate texted me again saying there is and my prof is there!!! and theres an exam.....CRAP!!! and now i dont want to go anymore......heck no i wont go anymore......im super late and there is no point.....why cant they properly give us a stupid schedule?!!! huh!! my prof said that there isnt an exam today! she said thursday! and now it changed! my other prof said that there is an exam today, but shes not there!!! FML!!!

and now i heard that jae-bum quits from being the leader of 2PM!! what the?!! just another thing to top off my already crappy day.......

gosh i hate this day.......im tired......and also i waited for nothing.....crap crap crap.......

and then now that im home.......i have nothing to do.........and no one to talk to........just great......great.....great.....*sarcasm.....

just an addition........just to make my day worse.....my computer is literally falling apart.....and its dying on me.....i need a new computer......sigh.......

no more boracay for me....

midterms....

2009-09-07T21:48:00.000-07:00

sigh, i wish i didnt go home.....

so i went home today thinking that my midterms for my classes are going to be on thursday.......thats what my profs said, but then my classmates texted me saying that there is a midterm!! wth?!!!

im so tired....and i dont want to go back to school again.....and if they are wrong about the exam! i will kill someone!!

now i gotta go and take my exam....i didnt study because i dont know what to study....its filipino and english....go figure.......

edited:

yeah i want to kill someone.....i went back to school, and theres no exam......fml!